dont know what to write...

wow...never thot that i ld be writing this post...but then...the human mind is a strange entity..so here i am...writing this out..its related to a girl...well just to give u some back ground info...

the sequence of events in brief..got to knw this gal doing her MBBS in mangalore while i was doing my engg in Pune, about ending of 3rd yr, say Jan 2004. Got talking to her...got to know her better..became very good frnds...faked something at home and went to meet her...had the most amazing 2 days of my life with her....fell for her...told her about the same....she was a hindu..me a sikh...she said her family wud never agree...i said..leave that to me...bcos i knew i cud make that happen(my family's pretty open to whomsoever i wud choose)..newaz..came back..with a hope that something might work out in the future...a week later she called to tell, that she was getting engaged....all of a sudden that was news...tho i knw she was lying...we went our own ways....

fast forward...about an yr and half later...a more stronger...maturer me...is working for HSBC...as a software engineer...slogging away day n night at work...n one fine night i get a call from her again...pleasant surprise..yes it was...did it feel good..yes it did...so she tells me that she lied to me during the engineering days so that i cud move away from the idea of "being with her"..as it was not possible...(lol...funny tactics some girls use eh)....newaz..things were different then...and things were different now...so we got talking again for sometime...she was in the last yr of her course then...

fast forward again...im doing my mba here in tamil nadu...after some period of no talking...i get a call from her again in feb this yr...shes single..im single..so we talk...and we talk..the talking gets better and takes me back to the good old memories for a while...

but then somewhere down the line...i feel so damn well prepared to take any shocks...its like u throw anything at me..im gonna defend it successfully...so with that kind of subconscious feeling inside me...we keep talking...somewhere the light of optimism still makes me believe that things might work..but if they dont then its ok..life wud move on..she got back home...her course finished...and we kept talking quite often till about a week ago...wen i had to go to chennai for a college event...

today, 7th nov 2007, she calls to tell me that she got married on 4th nov to some NRI...lol...the first thing in my mind..is she telling the truth or faking again??n the first thing i ask her is how'd this happen...n she says..it happened all of a sudden...within a couple of weeks n all..the usual blaah blah...n im thinkin here..shud i be laughing or not??finally it seemed she was telling the truth...so i wished her...spoke to her for a couple of minutes...n in between she says "i knw u must b shocked n al"..n i say "no i m not shocked...im much more stronger (emotionally)....so strong that i can take alot without getting affected"...this statement actually scared me a bit......

well i dont knw wat else to write..this just happened abt an hr ago.....newaz...as they say...life goes on...